PORTFOLIO
TRULY MYSELF
ANA VALENTINE
fashion & beauty
19 SEPT 2019
I just wanna enjoy every moment, have a blast, feel every second, feel alive, it´s been a while since i don´t feel like that, anxiety is killing me slowly and i´m tired of that, i control my life, i can´t live with fear, i wanna do real friendship and make memories with them, be part of something, i wanna dance and let my body along with the beat and don´t care about how i look or what i´m doing, i wanna feel like a main character in a movie scene, and i want to somebody see me like the most beautiful thing that ever saw, i wanna be truly me and don´t care about what other people think and be proud of what i am and what i do. i wanna be the best version of me and do all the thing that i have in mind, i wanna learn about everything, everything is important, and talk with people about the things that it really matters. i wanna stop of being cold heart and have actually feelings, i don´t care if someone breaks my heart again, i wanna feel something real and don´t be scare or empty.
don´t waste my time with bullshit, life is too short, things change so fast, i wish to accomplish most of my goals or al least try it, and don´t let anyone or anything stop me cause it´s difficult.
anxiety.
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BAD DATES ARE JUST GOOD STORIES OVER BEER
SEPTEMBER 2019 PLAYLIST
MOTIVATION
NORMANI
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TOLD YOU SO
GENELLE
PUT YOUR RECORDS ON
CORINNE BAILEY
ALL THE TIME
ZARA LARSSON
RELATIONSHIP
Right now people does´t know what is a real one and it seems like nobody wants one, they just wanna have fun or need to be with someone cause they can´t be by themselves, but why do you want have a boyfriend when you cheat or lie to them? isn't better be single and do whatever you want without explanations? or if you don´t really love them why do you say i love you like is not a big deal? are we fooling ourselves? is it cause is trendy have a boyfriend and if you are single you are a loser? most of the time i feel like i don´t belong to this society, is it that boring an stability relationship? sometimes I think about that person and if he really exist, i hope he is waiting for me but honestly i don´t believe in that, it sounds good but it almost imposible, and too good to be truth.
maybe is my problem, i have this idea of my perfect relationship and guy that probably is not real.
I can't wait until I'm financially stable enough to afford who I really am.
20's
The best and the worst, you are in the middle of nowhere, you have responsibilities like an adult but also you have time to figure everything out, you lifestyle is a mix of both, you still going out and drink like a teenager but also work and be independent like a old people. You have all types of friends, from 19 to 30 years old, and they are complete in a different chapters but you fit in both of them.Â
Once that you passed eighteen, times flies by like crazy, the university life ends and you don´t really know what you want, but you realized that is time to take a moment and start thinking seriously about it.Â
People around you are in a different relationships, some of them been together forever, that include most of the time living with each other and a future. Others don’t want nothing serious and they are with a different person every week just to not feel alone and a kind of love, a less percent of the people doesn’t care if the are by themselves and what they do is focus in their future and goals.Â
Basically you are scared to commitment but also want to find that true love.Â
Some days you want to make all those couple plans and have someone always there for you but other days you don’t want to have to give explanations to anyone.Â
You understand that in a few years you want an stability, a good life and find someone to start a family; and to build all of that you know that it takes time, but at the same time you think: I am still young and I want to enjoy like I did till this moment and don’t have anxiety for overthinking.Â
But at the end of the day, you can’t control you destiny and what life holds for you, like the opportunities along the way or the people that you will meet.
GIVING A FUCK DOESN'T REALLY GO WITH MY OUTFIT
CON LOS PIES EN EL SUELO Y LAS GANAS EN LAS NUBES.
If the love doesn't feel like 90's R&B I don't want it.
MY BIGGEST FLEX IS THAT NOBODY CAN SAY MY FITS ARE UGLY
HIGH GLOVES
IN THE MOOD TO KEEP CHOOSING MYSELF
REAL LIFE
Is it me? or Instagram is not anymore the most important thing over all? I mean, FINALLY.
i am not gonna lie, it was a time were everyone was obsessed with it, include me, and you realize that, it is cool that people think of your life as the perfect one, but be real, nobodys life is perfect, and everyone has their own issues and low days, but obviously they don’t show that, and what happens because of that is that some people believe it and compares to their lives and get jealous, but is not important to show the world or your followers what are you doing or where you at, life is not about that, is about those moments where you don´t need your phone, you complete forget that you have one, you don’t record those moments.
Don’t get me wrong, i think Social Media has a loot of good thing, you can be inspired, discover new places, connect with people that you will not able to do without it and so many other things.
Definitely life is not Instagram, life is the views, the places, the feeling of having fun, laughing, loving, being comfortable with someone, feel that wanna stop the time, wanna remember that forever, feeling the good vibes, feeling that you are actually enjoying life and you are not waisting your time in a screen, or in other’s people life, cause your living yours and we only have one.
people should look more around, cause there is a lot of thing that we miss.
SAYING HOW YOU FEEL NEVER RUIN A REAL CONNECTION
YOU ARE ALLOWED TO CHANGE THE PRICE OF WHAT IT COST TO ACCESS YOU
El arte de amargarse la vida mediante la tortura mental.
The more things seems to change, the more they stay the same.
Song: Put your records on
IF YOU WANT TO BE ORIGINA, BE READY TO BE COPIED.""
Coco Chanel
FRIENDSHIP
Friends are something very important in someone’s life, and you have to take care of them, also you need to know when is a good relationship or a toxic one, you need to know what you deserve and make boundaries, is a give and taken.
I love having the same friends for years, they know me the best and i can be totally myself.Â
The destiny choose those people to be in your life and learn from them and grow together making memories, and obviously there is gonna be a lot of type people, that is something i like, that every one of my friends are different, but even i so thankful for the friends that i have, cause i’ve always been so lucky to find and have a good people around, sometimes i miss have that friend who is like me but at the same time different, and you make a lot of plans with her, i know that kind of is my fault cause since a few years ago i’ve been living in a different places and i planning still doing it for a while , and is hard to keep in touch or have that kind of friendship, cause we barely see each other, the sad part of traveling is that you meet such incredible people but is not a forever thing, and you have to keep the friendship through FaceTime or message, but besides that, i’ve never found that girl that we share the same music, is expontaneous, like to make crazy planes, travel, have the same interesting as me, same style, take cool pictures together,being productive an make content, trying new things, i don’t know, probably sound weird or maybe if i found that person i wouldn’t like it, but i always wanted to meet someone like that.
Old ways won't open new doors
THE CONCEPT OF BEAUTY
THE MORE GRATEFUL I AM THE MORE BEAUTY I SEE
OCTOBER'S PLAYLIST
TIRED OF INSTAGRAM OR ME?
lately i’ve been out of social media, for no reason in particular, honestly i don’t have time to take pictures, even tho that’s kind of excuse cause it doesn’t take that much time, is just in the free time that i have i prefer being with my friends or doing things for myself.
i think there some periods of time where you are not feeling inspired or just not feeling yourself, every time that i try to do a photo I don’t like the way i look like i used do, honestly i might be bored of myself. every pic that i do is not like the way i want it, so i prefer not post anything rather than post bad content.
i tired of my face, my clothes, everything, maybe is that i’ve been my whole life trying to be where i wanna be and who i wanna be, the thing is that the years past and even tho i always have it very clear of how i want my future gonna look like, still not achieve nothing, and i am tired of waiting; waiting of be that person that i want, be where i want, have the lifestyle that i always want.
FASHION IS AN EXTENSION OF EXPRESSION
Great thing never come from confront zone.
TRY TO SOMEONE LIKES YOU
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it never happened to me before the fact of trying so hard to like to a guy, i alway think that i am enough and they have to love my for who i really am and if they don’t i don’t care, but with this person is different, i mean i don’t think that he actually like me, but i try my best to catch his eye. it so dumb i know, and i’ve never been like that , this is not me and is bad to act like that.
maybe cause i like him so bad and he doesn’t, that makes me keep trying, and i already know that i need to stop, cause i can tell how the story ends and nothing is gonna changes.
but is kind of funny how someone can make you do all those thing, is like i lost myself for a minute. if i post a pic i will think i wanna look the best just to he see me or i will try to look like the girls that he likes.
honestly most of the people do that, and that’s so wrong, you should do your things for you and no one else. and if he is not into you, don’t try harder, just forget it and move on. you don’t have to be someone that your not. and even tho is hard cause you like him or you wanna meet him so bad, whatever, you have to, and if it has to happen the destiny will put him in your way otherwise you will find someone better and made for you.
till that you should do you.
Mindset is what separates the best from the rest.
I GOT A 90'S R&B TYPE HEART
THE AFRAID OF BEING ME
Every time that people see me, and see how i dress, they thing that i so confident about myself, but it turns out that is complete the opposite. i mean i am confident about my style but when it comes of me, not at all, and i don’t know why, but i do know that is something that it takes time and patience.
the first step and probably the most important is to love yourself, i think i can check that step, cause i know my value and i will never let someone tears me down. but i still second doubt myself.
i can see it, specially when is about social media, i doubt of my make up, about my draws, about the way i look, the editing, everything. and i really want to do something creative and more me with my feed profile, but just because the afraid of what my followers will think or if random people search me, with is so funny cause of all my followers i probably don’t care about any of them only a few who are my close friends and i don’t care being myself with them.
i have to learn to ignore what people think ,obviously there’s gonna be people that they like me and there’s gonna be people that they don’t, but i have to think about me and what i wanna post or do in my life.
and be happy with the image that i show or create on social media.
EVERYTHING U WANT IS IN THE OTHER SIDE OF FEAR
PLACES
They bring you memories, they are the background of so many moments, i always felt like didn't belong of where i grew up but i thankful for it tho.
Is that i don't want to stuck there, makes me feel that i don't grow up as a person, i wanna see the more places as i can, even not just for visit i wanna live for a while in different cities with different cultures, that's the beauty of traveling and also the people that you meet there.
That experience no one can't take it away from you and it will remain forever.
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LOCATION: Malasaña, Madrid
LOOK AT THE SHIT WE CALL LOVE THESE DAYS
Love.... I think I don’t believe in it anymore, specially nowadays where our society is so fucked up
All those toxic relationship that never ends, people cheating on each other, some have the need of flirting with everyone and a lot of shitty thingsÂ
I almost sure that most of those relationships are not real love, there is a minimum amount of people who actually experience that.
People are afraid to spend time by themselves so they focus their atención and time in other people’s lives, and then they become dependent of each other.
What I know is that I prefer to being single rather than being with someone just to entertain meÂ
Sometimes I feel like a born in other time or even other planet because of what I want in a relationshipÂ
So that’s why sometimes I feel like there’s no one for me out there.
But I have me, and I like who I am and I enjoy spending time by myself, and that’s what really matter, and if the destiny or the universe wanna bring you someone in your life it will. You just need to trust ( even if it difficult sometimes )
BLUMARINE S/S 22 ( EARLY 2000'S )
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" sometimes we only see how people are different from us. But if you look hard enough, you can see how much we're alike. "
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SINGLE AND WAITING IS BETTER THAN TAKEN AND FAKING.
I AM ENOUGH
Sometimes I wish to catch someone’s eye, to be seen by someone, but then I realized that I do the opposite to it. I don’t let anyone to look at me, because I don’t like myself, so I don’t want or I don’t think that there’s a possibility of like or desire by another person.
I put so much pressure on myself to be that unrealistic and rare canon of beauty that I don’t let myself to be love yet.
I keep waiting for me to archive my goal and be how I wanna be in order to open me to love someone and be loved.
I have this idea about that you need to be the perfect girlfriend, perfect face, perfect body, perfect skin, perfect style, just acting perfect all the time. But the truth is, what make you closer to other person is when you are vulnerable and just you, not your perfect version, and he will love you anyways, even your flaws.
I thought that till I don’t get that perfect version, I can’t play the love game, so I just observe other people falling in and out of love, like watching a movie, but never thinking that it can happen to me, because I don’t allow myself. Like love is not made for me yet.
The sad part is that I will never get that version cause there’s always gonna be something to improve or change.
What is beautiful is growing with someone at the same time and feel value, loved.
THE CLASSIC
HEAVEN'S WHAT I FEEL
gloria estefan
YOU'RE STILL THE ONE
shania twain
IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME
cher
THE BEST
tina turner
I'M STILL STANDING
elton john
HAVE YOU EVER
brandy
MATERIAL GIRL, MYSTICAL WORLD
RECONNECT WITH MYSELF
This years ve been very different, time to learn a lot, life is phases, I can say that my life lately is more boring that it used to be 2 or 3 years ago, but not because of that one is better that’s other.Â
The key is enjoy each of them.
I used to be so lazy, with no routine, smoking, drinking a lot, go out every single weekend, I have so many memories and good time, now, I barely do that, because my priorities changed.Â
Now I focus on me and my health, have a good lifestyle, take care of me, now I enjoy the time that I have with myself.Â
I enjoy reading a good book, journaling, learn new things, new music, watch a movie, do yoga, exercise, meditate, drink water, eat whole food, draw.... I spend a lot of time alone and I don’t have afraid of it, I feel like home in my own head. And that is priceless
SOUL MUSIC
AIN'T NO MOUNTAIN HIGH ENOUGH
Marvin Gaye, tammi terrell
( WHAT A ) WONDERFUL WORLD
Sam Cooke
YOU CAN'T HURRY LOVE
The Supremes
I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER
Aretha Franklin
Fashion has played a huge role when constructing my identity
"In fear of losing what we don't have, we never go after what we love"
UNIVERSE
Gracias, gracias por crear esta mejor versión de mi misma, a veces hasta yo me sorprendo cuando me miro, (fÃsicamente mentalmente y espiritualmente),porque parezco otra persona y no puedo estar más feliz. Los cambios no son siempre algo malo. Alomejor es todo mérito mÃo pero yo creo que hay algo que yo no puedo controlar, que es superior a mi, nose que es, pero es lo que me da esa fuerza de voluntad para que no me cuesten hacen las cosas que antes no era capaz.
Soy tan feliz, estoy tan contenta con todo lo vivido y como soy como persona.
Yo le llamo suerte en la vida, pero dicen que la suerte no existe. Sea lo que sea GRACIAS y nunca serán suficientes.
BOYBANDS
WALKING IN THE RAIN
A1
WHEN YOU'RE LOOKING LIKE THAT
Westlife
END OF THE ROAD
Boyz II men
IF IT ISN'T LOVE
New edition
THE HAPPINESS OF YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON THE QUALITY OF YOUR THOUGHTS
XMAS 21
2021 RECAP
This year started very bad, i was lost, sad, unhappy, i barely wanted to get out of bed, i didn’t move my body at all, i was not taking care of myself and everything was uncertainty, also the pandemic still going on.Â
but at some point, something click in my mind and i decide to put my shit together and try to change all the things i was complaining about and start the lifestyle that i always wanted.
i started reading and now i can’t live without read a bit everyday, i got into the spiritual world, discover that was the most helpful thing i ever did, i went to therapy, i journal everyday too, and the most important thing to me right now is that i enjoy so much go to the gym, if i am honest, i don’t recognize myself sometimes.Â
also i became to pay more attention to my friends, because sometimes i get so lost in myself that i forget about others.
is a slow process, you have to take it step by step, be constant and positive. at first you don’t see any changes or result but i promise that with time it will and you will feel happy, fulfill and productive, you can’t give up.Â
it’s crazy how a bad year can turn put a good year, just changing the attitude and the perspective of how you see things.
what i hope for 2022 is to keep doing all the habit that i started in the 2021 and get better and better, hopefully archive all my goals for this upcoming year.Â
if this one was good the next year has to be great.
GROWTH IS UNCOMFORTABLE, BECAUSE YOU'VE NEVER BEEN HERE BEFORE
THE DIVAS
MARIAH CAREY
- Without youÂ
- HeroÂ
- Through the rain
- We belong together
- Can't take that away
WHITNEY HOUSTON
- Where do broken heart go
- Step by step
- It's not right but it's okay
- Higher love
-Million dollar bill
CELINE DION
- It's all coming back to me now
- That's the way it is
- The power of love
- To love you more
- I'm alive
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Pride & prejudice
"Cuanto mas conozco el mundo, mas me desagrada y el tiempo me confirma mi creencia en la inconsciencia del carácter humano y en lo poco que se puede uno fiar de las apariencias de bondad o inteligencia."
FORD TAUNUS 2300 GT COUPE 1970 -75
MAKE UP LOOKS
GREEN
EYERLINE
VIOLET
¿puedes recordar quien eras antes de que el mundo te dijera quien debÃas ser?
HABITS 2022
skincare
yoga
meditate
2L water
whole food ( meal planner )
read
journal + gratitude + affirmations
max 4h screen
padel
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discover songs /Â podcast
pinterest inspo moodboards
track habits + study planner =Â notion + goodnotes
movies
paint / sketch / portfolio
8h sleep
walk every day + vitamine c
workout
wake up early + make bed
STUDY MOODBOARD
